My words have fallen void.
My heart has begun a process I never thought could or would take place.
As the tears flowed yesterday in therapy I knew it was a turning point in my life.
In my health.
In my marriage.
In my family.
There is a huge part of me that has wanted to hide my inner struggles.
I have tried to write the past few weeks and it has been hard.
That was until today when I realized someone might need to hear that it is okay to ask for help.
If you are struggling with depression.
If you are struggling with an internal critic.
If you are struggling with addiction to food or alcohol.
If you are just plain struggling to get out of bed and do life please please please ask for help.
We do not have to struggle alone.
We do not have to soldier on trying to make everything alright all while struggling internally.
We do not have to hide our pain.
We do not have to pretend to have it all together.
Ask for help friends.
Seek a friend to listen.
Seek therapy.
Seek healing.
Life is far too short and precious to spend it struggling alone.
In the past few weeks I have come to realize how amazing my husband, son and girlfriends are and how extremely important they are to my sanity. I have also come to admit that I am in a season of needing more help than any of them can give me in my life.
The pain and struggle of trying to mask the pain of my past has gotten to be unbearable.
It has brought me to a place of realizing that sometimes praying, seeking and hoping for healing is not enough. Sometimes seeking professional help is the ONLY way to really begin to undo the pain and angst living inside of you… holding you back from living your dreams.
My words may fall void.
My words may be judged.
My words may be misconstrued but, my truth is being unlocked and healed through this process of learning to live my true and authentic unapologetic self.
May you too find healing in asking for help without fear of where the darkness will take you while slowly learning to let the light shine within.
Father God please help me to be real, authentic and honest as I begin this journey of healing. Use me. Show me who to encourage. Help me to dream again. My heart is broken in your hands but, I trust you more than ever now. Thank you, Amen.
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